I grimace when I look at my poor website, abandoned for over a year. That’s like a light year on the internet. But I took time off from social media and mainly blogging to have a second child and contemplate, “what is truly important to me when time is the most valuable commodity in my life right now and what do I do with my time…especially when the world seems like it’s on fire.”
Having kids does this to you. I knew parenthood would change me, but I had no idea that I’d also find myself staring off into the kitchen tile, head cocked, pupils dilated, 3 year old dumping every single toy in his possession out into my once perfectly arranged living room, newborn feeding off my breasts like Pink in some aerial act, bouncing up and down, somersaulting in the air, while still latched onto my nipple. My brain, once this highly evolved organ, multi-tasking beyond any White House aide’s dream (pre-Trump), was now reduced to a simple conundrum. Who knew sleep was so important in life and how can I sleep while still awake? Surely NASA must have figured something out by now?
The truth is I love being a Mom. (Like how I cut off my daughter’s head in the pic above? These damn settings – I have no time!) Parenting has taught me so much and given me such insight into the way I experience the world, I would never trade it for anything I might have coveted prior to having kids. Yes, never. But like every working Mother knows, how one manages time, work and play is a challenge that’s just unavoidable.
And did I mention that it feels like the world is sinking into a deep inferno?
Well, it’s been over a year and I’m happy to say that answers are emerging or at least I’m…making progress.
A new website will soon be launching (yes, that’s gonna save the world totally!) and I’ve been doing a lot of existential “stewing” (that’s what I call those “lost in the kitchen tile” moments). And the stew is nearly finished! Well, it’s stew, it’s ready, it just tastes better with age.
I look forward to sharing more as we get the site ready for the launch.
Hello? Bueller. Bueller? Anybody out there?